I cann0t believe this is the 16th and the last p0st I did was 0n the 2nd. what happened t0 the time. I th0ught it had 0nly been a week. Sh0ws h0w wr0ng I was. It seems like life happens and y0u g0, where did the time g0.
Last week was a challenge f0r me with s0me family tr0ubles. N0thing that G0d cann0t w0rk 0ut. But here is what I am still learning ab0ut myself. I want t0 help and make it better. Is that my j0b? N0. Will it change any 0f the circumstances? N0. Are there c0nsequences t0 ch0ices we make, g00d 0r bad? Yes. S0 what can I d0? Pray and be supp0rtive, but it is n0t my burden t0 carry. Careing and c0mpassi0n are part 0f wh0 I am, but it d0esn't mean I can take things 0n. Can y0u believe I am still learning that at this age, but yes, I certainly am.
Then dealing with the new physically challenges, learning t0 accept the energy levels that I have. At times it is n0ne and I need t0 be resting, 0ther times it is spurts ab0ut which I get really excited. But each 0f these situati0ns causes me t0 make ch0ices, learning t0 make wise 0nes d0es take time. Can I accept where my b0dy is at? I can fight against it 0r deal with the reality 0f where I am at right n0w. I am learning t0 d0 the later. By fighting it I am using up the preci0us energy that I have t0 be frustrated and mad. It w0n't make the circumstances change, but it wastes the time that I have that I c0uld be d0ing s0mething that brings a smile, 0r enc0urages an0ther.
I make s0 many ch0ices daily that I didn't really think ab0ut bef0re, I d0 n0w. I sh0uld have been paying a little m0re attenti0n. Maybe that is 0ne 0f the less0ns I am learning. I will make s0me g00d ch0ices, s0metimes great 0nes, s0metimes 0nes that I will be shaking my head g0ing what in the w0rld was I thinking. But that is all 0kay. Taking resp0nsiblity f0r my ch0ices past and present all0ws me t0 live a real life. If I want t0 make a difference then I have t0 be real.
H0pe y0u all are enj0ying the seas0n, realizing that it is the relati0nships that matter and n0t the things.
later,
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Carol Sue,
Thanks for posting this. Sometimes we think we are helping in a situation just to find we are frustrating ourselves and others.
And sometimes we need to hear it or read it in this case to realize just how it applies to us. Don't ever think God isn't using you to reach others and encourage us.
Hugs,
Denise
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