Today was a day where I did not have super lots of energy. I choose to sit in bed and read for a bit this morning. I like spending quiet time reading. I read every night before I go to sleep, at least an hour or so. Helps me relax and wind down from the day. My parents liked to read as well and the library was a great place to go and still is. If I had to provide for my reading appetite I would be in debt so badly. So libraries are very much my friends. I like going through the stacks and checking out new and old books. Discovering an author and reading all that they have written. I have been enjoying a good who dunnit the last couple of years. I read mostly fiction. It is like taking an adventure to another time and place, or figuring out the puzzle of who you think could have done the murder. At times, I make some pretty good guesses and other times it takes such twists and turns that the outcome is a surprize.
One of these days I will have to write down author's I have enjoyed. I write down in a little book I have when I go to the library of who I have enjoyed because I can't remember when I get there. LOL but oh so true. An enjoyment is also taking my grand girls who love the library and checking out books and having them read to them when they were younger. Now they are figuring out how to read and what a delight for them to read to us. Having another generation enjoy books like I do is quite a joy indeed.
So in case you haven't made the time for a good read, just a reminder to go visit your local library and browse through the books to see what adventure you can find for yourself.
cs
Thursday, May 29, 2008
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
So last few days have been a little nutty around my house. My dd had her wisdom teeth pulled and so the family has been pitching in. The surgery went very well, she is recovering slowly but that is be expected. We have been watching the grand girls and boy. Yesterday I have to say I was down to break down cause I was one very pooped Nana. So Nana went and took a nap.
That made life a bit better. Today she has chipmunk cheeks and thankfully they aren't so chubby!!!!!!
I have been attempting to finish mini aprons, a swap that I have been doing on MaryJanes Farm with some great and amazing gals. They make me laugh and have been a good support system for me as well. We are all in different places in our lives but sharing them makes the challenges easier. It doesn't change the curcumstances but it does help in walking out our journeys.
Today it cooled down and rained like cats and dogs here. We have had unusually warm weather for the last 4 days. We don't have upper 80's until July and we had them this weekend. My body was not a happy camper for some of it. Slowly being able to climatize does work better for this girl. But I have to say the sunshine was glorious. So this morning I got up to warmer temps and then is started raining. Do ya know the smell the comes with a fresh rain after a hot spell, how the earth drinks up the moisture and the delightful smell that comes with it. I took a short walk, squished my shoes in the puddles, smiled big, twirled around, spring is so here. I am so so grateful. It also means I didn't have to do the watering for the yard and my neighbors that I am watching. Double good for me.
Kitty adventures here. I have two kitties that are new to my house. They are part siamese and alley cat. A tamed alley cat that got into the house and got mama Zoe who was a rescue siamese. She only comes to the new owner and it took her 6 months to be able to get near her and have her let her pet here. Talk about patient. It was dd high school friend and she wanted to make sure they got good homes. So I now have a boy and a girl. They give quite the adventures at times. I have my minis aprons on mini clotheslines in my sewing room window. They have discovered them, and figured out how to get them off the clothesline and then get to play with them. Stinkers they are. Right now Chloe is sound asleep on my arm as I type, and Buster is curled up with Lucy and Dudette our two small dogs. You should hear them all running up and down the hall here, skidding into each other and taking off like 60 again. Pets sure can make your day.
It is taking those fun times, enjoying them, letting them make you laugh. There is also taking the moments and laughing at yourself. Because let's face it we are rather hilarious at times.
Our own antics can be as goofy as the animals. Like talking away to my hubby and putting the cereal in the frig and the milk in the cupboard. He was looking at me and goes," Honey, are you sure you want to do that.?" I was wondering what he was talking about. I said, "Yeah". Then he opened the fridge and I went "OH" , started laughing and fixed it back to normal. Hey I never said I was normal.
So take some time and enjoy yourself, that includes havin a good laugh!!!!!!
That made life a bit better. Today she has chipmunk cheeks and thankfully they aren't so chubby!!!!!!
I have been attempting to finish mini aprons, a swap that I have been doing on MaryJanes Farm with some great and amazing gals. They make me laugh and have been a good support system for me as well. We are all in different places in our lives but sharing them makes the challenges easier. It doesn't change the curcumstances but it does help in walking out our journeys.
Today it cooled down and rained like cats and dogs here. We have had unusually warm weather for the last 4 days. We don't have upper 80's until July and we had them this weekend. My body was not a happy camper for some of it. Slowly being able to climatize does work better for this girl. But I have to say the sunshine was glorious. So this morning I got up to warmer temps and then is started raining. Do ya know the smell the comes with a fresh rain after a hot spell, how the earth drinks up the moisture and the delightful smell that comes with it. I took a short walk, squished my shoes in the puddles, smiled big, twirled around, spring is so here. I am so so grateful. It also means I didn't have to do the watering for the yard and my neighbors that I am watching. Double good for me.
Kitty adventures here. I have two kitties that are new to my house. They are part siamese and alley cat. A tamed alley cat that got into the house and got mama Zoe who was a rescue siamese. She only comes to the new owner and it took her 6 months to be able to get near her and have her let her pet here. Talk about patient. It was dd high school friend and she wanted to make sure they got good homes. So I now have a boy and a girl. They give quite the adventures at times. I have my minis aprons on mini clotheslines in my sewing room window. They have discovered them, and figured out how to get them off the clothesline and then get to play with them. Stinkers they are. Right now Chloe is sound asleep on my arm as I type, and Buster is curled up with Lucy and Dudette our two small dogs. You should hear them all running up and down the hall here, skidding into each other and taking off like 60 again. Pets sure can make your day.
It is taking those fun times, enjoying them, letting them make you laugh. There is also taking the moments and laughing at yourself. Because let's face it we are rather hilarious at times.
Our own antics can be as goofy as the animals. Like talking away to my hubby and putting the cereal in the frig and the milk in the cupboard. He was looking at me and goes," Honey, are you sure you want to do that.?" I was wondering what he was talking about. I said, "Yeah". Then he opened the fridge and I went "OH" , started laughing and fixed it back to normal. Hey I never said I was normal.
So take some time and enjoy yourself, that includes havin a good laugh!!!!!!
Saturday, May 17, 2008
Whooowiiieee it is a bit warm
I bet you thought I was gonna talk about the weather, maybe, and maybe not. LOL
Although we are having it a bit warm here for this time of year, 88, in May is hot.
Then I could be talking about the game we played when we were kids, you are getting warmer, warmer, warmer, now you are cold. We were hiding an object and had to tell those looking whether they were hot or cold. My grand girls like playing it with Nana. Yep, that would be me.
I think that you have this wonderful kid inside of us always. Yes, I do have my very own toy box. In fact, I went with my dd on an errand for her and found it. Or should I say I found a bigger one just for me. It is this square suitcase, an older style one and it is just perfect. I can't wait to decorate it. What is in my toy box you ask? Lets see, an origami, I spelled that wrong, little kit to make tiny little stars with instructions of coarse. It is by Klutz and they have wonderful craft kits. DD has made a few of them, I actually got it for her and I to do. Grown ups need to have fun too. Then there is my rubber ball I play with. You remember those ones when we were kids that you could really make bounce good and high. I have a couple older marbles that I love. Then I have my Duncan Yoyo. Also there is a ball that bounces great that came from Target that is like a snowball that you get a Christmas and can shake and watch it snow. This one has glitter inside and when you bounce it it goes all over and sparkles. It is quite mesmerizing. DD has 2 of them, hers are red and gold glitters and mine is a sea green. In the sunlight, they dance with movement. What would I like to add to that toy box of mine, hmmmm, lots of old wooden dominoes, some real metal jacks and the ball that went with it.
I have bubble stuff outside because I truly do love blowing bubbles. Then I have a couple of dolls given by friends. One is a cabbage patch which I am going to sew clothes for.
I think that the kid in all of us needs to have things to just go take a break with. Especially when life has tough days, or you need a break from an intense project, it gives you space to deal with those things.
I have gone to that toy box off and on in the last few months just to give myself a bright moment in the agony of pain. An activity to distract myself from the pain, I also read and watch a movie. Sometimes the pain is intense enough that I want to be out of my skin for just 5 minutes. Just 5 blissful minutes, but that hasn't been a possibility until now.
I deal with Fibromyalgia and have for almost 2 years. I have dealt with chronic pain in other areas for the last 2o years and I have learned how to deal. But this, this has been a most painful journey. Dealing with doctors who have their agenda and belief of what you need to do. They do not live with this condition. They don't call it a disease because there is not underlying condition.
Your body is in horrible pain, when you exercise it is in horrible pain, when you wake, when you sleep, there is no getting away from it. There are not a lot of answers either.
Every person is so different in how it operates in their body. What will work for one, will do nothing for another. It changes your entire life, as much as you don't want it too, there are changes you must deal with. Facing the reality can be overwhelming in ways you mind just can't comprehend at times.
For me the change has been devastating at times, I love being active and that hasn't been how my life has been. I love to garden and ride my bike and play and run with my grand girls. I like to sew and read and help with projects around my house. I don't mind vacuuming and cleaning, nope not been happening. So I talk to some dear sweet friends, and you know who you are, that have encouraged me, sent me needed info, just been there for me in ways I cannot even explain. They have gotten me through the days when I have wanted to give up, when the thought of this for the rest of my life is more than I can even comprehend or think about. They have encouraged me with trying new avenues of medications. Because of them, my pain has been lessened this week.
I asked to be put on Nuerontin, it helps some with the pain. I do still take pain meds but nothing like I was. I have woken up for 5 days in a row without excruciating pain. I can breath a bit again. Then there is my fear, fear that this will only work for a bit and then the shoe will drop again. Why am I so willing to believe that and not that this is the answer for me and a blessing in my life. A book I was reading made this comment about why do you believe it is "always winter and never Christmas" I had to truthfully think about that one. Why is it easier to wonder when the shoe will drop instead of believing that this is an answer, a blessing in my life.
So I am beginning to again make the choices to be grateful, thankful for every moment.
To appreciate those blessings in my life in the midst of the pain. I realize that in doing this I am changing my thinking as well. It has been rather stinky for a time here. When pain becomes the driving force, you truthfully try to stay the coarse, to believe for the changes, to hope and dream. You do not know if they will come but you believe for them. And some days there is no hope, no ability to be able to dream, only the pain. In those times I remember where my hope truly is, it is in the One who knows exactly where I am at and has been there before me. Who comforts my broken heart and holds me in His arms. Who gentle uses others to keep me going and giving me hope, to not give up and to continue on. I truly am a firm believer in community, that that can be your friends on the Internet, your neighbors, those who are family to you. Family doesn't have to be blood because there are so many in my life that aren't blood to me who are truly my family. Don't get my wrong, I dearly love my family and their continuous support. The hardiest part of this journey has been asking for help. Humbling myself and biting the bullet at times. I have been the one to give and to be there for others. This is humbling.
Like my nurse practioner told me, you have given for years, let others give into your life's. For those of you who have helped me with this, thank you.
And so I continue on believing for another day and for hope to get walking on.
Although we are having it a bit warm here for this time of year, 88, in May is hot.
Then I could be talking about the game we played when we were kids, you are getting warmer, warmer, warmer, now you are cold. We were hiding an object and had to tell those looking whether they were hot or cold. My grand girls like playing it with Nana. Yep, that would be me.
I think that you have this wonderful kid inside of us always. Yes, I do have my very own toy box. In fact, I went with my dd on an errand for her and found it. Or should I say I found a bigger one just for me. It is this square suitcase, an older style one and it is just perfect. I can't wait to decorate it. What is in my toy box you ask? Lets see, an origami, I spelled that wrong, little kit to make tiny little stars with instructions of coarse. It is by Klutz and they have wonderful craft kits. DD has made a few of them, I actually got it for her and I to do. Grown ups need to have fun too. Then there is my rubber ball I play with. You remember those ones when we were kids that you could really make bounce good and high. I have a couple older marbles that I love. Then I have my Duncan Yoyo. Also there is a ball that bounces great that came from Target that is like a snowball that you get a Christmas and can shake and watch it snow. This one has glitter inside and when you bounce it it goes all over and sparkles. It is quite mesmerizing. DD has 2 of them, hers are red and gold glitters and mine is a sea green. In the sunlight, they dance with movement. What would I like to add to that toy box of mine, hmmmm, lots of old wooden dominoes, some real metal jacks and the ball that went with it.
I have bubble stuff outside because I truly do love blowing bubbles. Then I have a couple of dolls given by friends. One is a cabbage patch which I am going to sew clothes for.
I think that the kid in all of us needs to have things to just go take a break with. Especially when life has tough days, or you need a break from an intense project, it gives you space to deal with those things.
I have gone to that toy box off and on in the last few months just to give myself a bright moment in the agony of pain. An activity to distract myself from the pain, I also read and watch a movie. Sometimes the pain is intense enough that I want to be out of my skin for just 5 minutes. Just 5 blissful minutes, but that hasn't been a possibility until now.
I deal with Fibromyalgia and have for almost 2 years. I have dealt with chronic pain in other areas for the last 2o years and I have learned how to deal. But this, this has been a most painful journey. Dealing with doctors who have their agenda and belief of what you need to do. They do not live with this condition. They don't call it a disease because there is not underlying condition.
Your body is in horrible pain, when you exercise it is in horrible pain, when you wake, when you sleep, there is no getting away from it. There are not a lot of answers either.
Every person is so different in how it operates in their body. What will work for one, will do nothing for another. It changes your entire life, as much as you don't want it too, there are changes you must deal with. Facing the reality can be overwhelming in ways you mind just can't comprehend at times.
For me the change has been devastating at times, I love being active and that hasn't been how my life has been. I love to garden and ride my bike and play and run with my grand girls. I like to sew and read and help with projects around my house. I don't mind vacuuming and cleaning, nope not been happening. So I talk to some dear sweet friends, and you know who you are, that have encouraged me, sent me needed info, just been there for me in ways I cannot even explain. They have gotten me through the days when I have wanted to give up, when the thought of this for the rest of my life is more than I can even comprehend or think about. They have encouraged me with trying new avenues of medications. Because of them, my pain has been lessened this week.
I asked to be put on Nuerontin, it helps some with the pain. I do still take pain meds but nothing like I was. I have woken up for 5 days in a row without excruciating pain. I can breath a bit again. Then there is my fear, fear that this will only work for a bit and then the shoe will drop again. Why am I so willing to believe that and not that this is the answer for me and a blessing in my life. A book I was reading made this comment about why do you believe it is "always winter and never Christmas" I had to truthfully think about that one. Why is it easier to wonder when the shoe will drop instead of believing that this is an answer, a blessing in my life.
So I am beginning to again make the choices to be grateful, thankful for every moment.
To appreciate those blessings in my life in the midst of the pain. I realize that in doing this I am changing my thinking as well. It has been rather stinky for a time here. When pain becomes the driving force, you truthfully try to stay the coarse, to believe for the changes, to hope and dream. You do not know if they will come but you believe for them. And some days there is no hope, no ability to be able to dream, only the pain. In those times I remember where my hope truly is, it is in the One who knows exactly where I am at and has been there before me. Who comforts my broken heart and holds me in His arms. Who gentle uses others to keep me going and giving me hope, to not give up and to continue on. I truly am a firm believer in community, that that can be your friends on the Internet, your neighbors, those who are family to you. Family doesn't have to be blood because there are so many in my life that aren't blood to me who are truly my family. Don't get my wrong, I dearly love my family and their continuous support. The hardiest part of this journey has been asking for help. Humbling myself and biting the bullet at times. I have been the one to give and to be there for others. This is humbling.
Like my nurse practioner told me, you have given for years, let others give into your life's. For those of you who have helped me with this, thank you.
And so I continue on believing for another day and for hope to get walking on.
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